212.<\/p>\n
Unutur gibi olursun bazen. Bir s\u00fcre. Ondan \u00f6nce nas\u0131l ak\u0131yorsa \u00f6yle ak\u0131yor gibi gelir hayat. Bir s\u00fcre. Ba\u015fka \u015feylerle u\u011fra\u015f\u0131p, ba\u015fka \u015feylerle heyecanlan\u0131p, ba\u015fka \u015feylere \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrs\u00fcn. Ama bir s\u00fcre. Oysa hepsi eksiktir. Her neyle me\u015fgulsen tam da onun ortas\u0131nda geliverir g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc akl\u0131na. O an akl\u0131n\u0131 kaybedersin. Elinde bir kald\u0131r\u0131m ta\u015f\u0131yla polis barikat\u0131na do\u011fru ko\u015farken ya da tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131n insanlarla \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck sloganlar\u0131 atarken ya da k\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u0131zlayan koluna daha az s\u0131zlayan incinmi\u015f kolunla pres yaparken birden bire akl\u0131na geliverir. Ve o an ba\u015fka her \u015fey anlams\u0131zla\u015f\u0131r. Ko\u015farak onun yan\u0131na gitmek istersin. Elinden tutmak, al\u0131p onu, kimsenin kimseye de\u011fmedi\u011fi bir yere ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131p, dizlerine yatmak istersin b\u00fct\u00fcn yorgunluklar\u0131n\u0131 diz kapaklar\u0131na g\u00f6m\u00fcp. Ko\u015famazs\u0131n. \u00d6ylece kalakal\u0131rs\u0131n. Ta\u015f elinden d\u00fc\u015fer. Kolunun s\u0131z\u0131s\u0131 donup kal\u0131r. Ne ona gidebilirsin ne bulundu\u011fun yerde kalabilirsin. Onun d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda her \u015fey anlam\u0131n\u0131 yitirir. Sessizce her neredeysen uzakla\u015f\u0131r, ilk g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn tekel bayiinden iki tane k\u0131rm\u00ecz\u0131 tuborg al\u0131p parka do\u011fru yol al\u0131rs\u0131n. Akl\u0131nda bir tek o, dudaklar\u0131nda ac\u0131 bir \u0131sl\u0131k, davas\u0131na ihanet etmi\u015f ama bundan zerrece pi\u015fmanl\u0131k duymayan bir su\u00e7lu gibi, i\u00e7ine i\u00e7ine ak\u0131t\u0131rs\u0131n akmaktan utanan t\u00fcm ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc a\u015fkt\u0131r bunun ad\u0131 ve a\u015fk ba\u015fka her \u015feyi unutturacak kadar kuvvetli bir gerek\u00e7edir. Neye mi? Kendisinden ba\u015fka her \u015feye..<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
212. Unutur gibi olursun bazen. Bir s\u00fcre. Ondan \u00f6nce nas\u0131l ak\u0131yorsa \u00f6yle ak\u0131yor gibi gelir hayat. Bir s\u00fcre. Ba\u015fka \u015feylerle u\u011fra\u015f\u0131p, ba\u015fka \u015feylerle heyecanlan\u0131p, ba\u015fka \u015feylere \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrs\u00fcn. Ama bir s\u00fcre. Oysa hepsi eksiktir. Her neyle me\u015fgulsen tam da onun ortas\u0131nda geliverir g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc akl\u0131na. O an akl\u0131n\u0131 kaybedersin. Elinde bir kald\u0131r\u0131m ta\u015f\u0131yla polis barikat\u0131na do\u011fru ko\u015farken […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"1","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/303"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=303"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/303\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=303"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=303"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=303"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}