{"id":300,"date":"2013-05-25T10:18:00","date_gmt":"2013-05-25T08:18:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/2013\/05\/tesirsiz-parcalar-208-211\/"},"modified":"2013-05-25T10:18:00","modified_gmt":"2013-05-25T08:18:00","slug":"tesirsiz-parcalar-208-211","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/2013\/05\/tesirsiz-parcalar-208-211\/","title":{"rendered":"Tesirsiz Par\u00e7alar 208-211.."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>208.<br \/>Kendimden ba\u015fka her \u015feye \u00f6zeniyorum bazen . Her \u015feye ama. Bir marula, t\u0131rt\u0131la, kediye, mu\u015fambaya\u2026 Hepsinin yarad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir i\u015f var sanki ve sanki bir tek ben hi\u00e7bir i\u015fe yaram\u0131yorum. \u0130\u015fe yaramayan \u015feyler de vard\u0131r muhakkak ama onlar da i\u015fe yaramad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n fark\u0131nda de\u011fillerdir eminim. Tanr\u0131 her insan\u0131 bir \u015feyle s\u0131nar yaz\u0131yor kitap. Galiba benim s\u0131nav\u0131m da yine ben\u2019im. Ben benle s\u0131nan\u0131yorum. Bu kadar \u00e7ok ben dedi\u011fim i\u00e7in bile utan\u0131yorum mesela. Di\u015f \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fc\u011f\u00fc oyu\u011fu kadar kirli, can yakan ve zavall\u0131 bir bo\u015fluk var i\u00e7imde. Bir \u015feylerle doldurmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum zaman zaman o bo\u015flu\u011fu, olmuyor. \u0130\u00e7imdeki bo\u015fluk a\u011fr\u0131yor her gece ve ben o a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131 neyle kesebilece\u011fimi \u00e7ok iyi biliyorum asl\u0131nda. Ama onu bile beceremiyorum. Korkuyorum.. <\/p>\n<p>209.<br \/>D\u00fcnya denen \u015fey ne b\u00fcy\u00fck yaln\u0131zl\u0131k..<\/p>\n<p>210.<br \/>Bir mavi vard\u0131 akl\u0131mda<br \/>Ko\u015fup yakalayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m<br \/>Akl\u0131m art\u0131k ku\u015f akl\u0131<br \/>Mavi bana \u00e7ok uzak..<\/p>\n<p>211.<br \/>Yapt\u0131klar\u0131yla de\u011fil yapmad\u0131klar\u0131yla k\u0131rar insan sevdi\u011fini. Ve s\u00f6ylediklerinden \u00e7ok s\u00f6ylemedikleriyle..<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>208.Kendimden ba\u015fka her \u015feye \u00f6zeniyorum bazen . Her \u015feye ama. Bir marula, t\u0131rt\u0131la, kediye, mu\u015fambaya\u2026 Hepsinin yarad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir i\u015f var sanki ve sanki bir tek ben hi\u00e7bir i\u015fe yaram\u0131yorum. \u0130\u015fe yaramayan \u015feyler de vard\u0131r muhakkak ama onlar da i\u015fe yaramad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n fark\u0131nda de\u011fillerdir eminim. Tanr\u0131 her insan\u0131 bir \u015feyle s\u0131nar yaz\u0131yor kitap. Galiba benim s\u0131nav\u0131m da [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"1","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/300"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=300"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/300\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=300"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=300"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=300"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}