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Yedi sekiz y\u0131l kadar \u00f6nceydi. Belki biraz daha eski, ikibinlerin ba\u015f\u0131 gibi belki, emin de\u011filim. D\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kmak istemedi\u011fim, tamam\u0131n\u0131 evde ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim nadir g\u00fcnlerin birinde odam\u0131n kasvetinden bunal\u0131p kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131m sigara i\u00e7mek i\u00e7in. Annem taburede oturmu\u015f el i\u015fiyle u\u011fra\u015f\u0131yordu. Yan\u0131na \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcp sigaram\u0131 yakt\u0131m. Ortalar\u0131na kadar neredeyse hi\u00e7 konu\u015fmad\u0131k. Uzun Samsun i\u00e7iyordum o zamanlar, ismi gibi i\u00e7imi de hayli uzun s\u00fcr\u00fcyordu. Bir ara kafam\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131m, \u00e7apraz\u0131m\u0131zdaki sokak \u00e7\u00f6pl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde temiz y\u00fczl\u00fc ve temiz k\u0131yafetli bir teyzeyi \u00e7\u00f6p kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131rken g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Daha \u00f6nce g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim buralarda. Anneme g\u00f6sterdim ve sordum kim bu teyze diye. ‘haa’ dedi ‘o mu? …… Teyze’ (hat\u0131rlayamad\u0131m \u015fimdi ismini). Arka soka\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda, iki odal\u0131 kerpi\u00e7 bir evde oturuyormu\u015f torunlar\u0131yla. O\u011flu gelinini vurmu\u015f iki y\u0131l \u00f6nce. Kad\u0131n mezara, adam hapse yollanm\u0131\u015f. En b\u00fcy\u00fc\u011f\u00fc sekiz ya\u015f\u0131nda olan \u00fc\u00e7 torunuyla bir ba\u015f\u0131na kalakalm\u0131\u015f teyze. Hi\u00e7bir geliri olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ve muhtarl\u0131k kanal\u0131yla gelen yard\u0131m da bir halta yaramad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n karn\u0131n\u0131 doyurup evin ihtiya\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131lamak i\u00e7in sokaklarda ka\u011f\u0131t ve teneke kutu toplay\u0131p satmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yormu\u015f. Kola ya da bira i\u00e7ip att\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z teneke kutular\u0131n toplan\u0131p sat\u0131labildi\u011fini ilk o g\u00fcn \u00f6\u011frendim. Merak ettim ne kadar kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131. Bir rakam s\u00f6yledi annem. A\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yukar\u0131 o zamanlar i\u00e7ti\u011fim sigara paras\u0131 kadar bir \u015fey. \u015eimdiki be\u015f Tl. civar\u0131nda bir para. Kafamda otuzla \u00e7arpt\u0131m, i\u00e7im buruldu. Bu kadarc\u0131k parayla nas\u0131l ge\u00e7inilir? B\u0131rak\u0131n ba\u015fka her \u015feyi nas\u0131l kar\u0131n doyurulur? \u00dcz\u00fcld\u00fcm epey. Sonra sigara bitti, eve girdim..
Sonra.. Sonra hi\u00e7bir \u015fey olmad\u0131. Teyze ve torunlar\u0131 i\u00e7in hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yapmad\u0131m, yapan\u0131 da duymad\u0131m. S\u00fcratle (muhtemelen ayn\u0131 g\u00fcn i\u00e7inde) unuttum zavall\u0131 hikayelerini. Bir ka\u00e7 hafta sonra K\u0131sa Parl\u0131ament i\u00e7meye ba\u015flad\u0131m olaydan tamamen ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131z olarak..
Bu kadar.. B\u00fct\u00fcn hikaye bu kadar. \u00d6zeti de \u015fu : Allah a\u015fk\u0131na b\u0131rak\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fck insanl\u0131k idealleri vs. z\u0131mb\u0131rt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131. Herkes herkesin bir sigara i\u00e7imi kadar umurunda. Bir sigara i\u00e7imi \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcp, bir sigara i\u00e7imi dertleniyor sonra sigaram\u0131z\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcp, boktan heveslerimizin pe\u015fine tak\u0131l\u0131p yan\u0131ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdaki insanlar\u0131n trajedilerini s\u00fcratle unutuyoruz hepsi bu..<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
155.Yedi sekiz y\u0131l kadar \u00f6nceydi. Belki biraz daha eski, ikibinlerin ba\u015f\u0131 gibi belki, emin de\u011filim. D\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kmak istemedi\u011fim, tamam\u0131n\u0131 evde ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim nadir g\u00fcnlerin birinde odam\u0131n kasvetinden bunal\u0131p kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131m sigara i\u00e7mek i\u00e7in. Annem taburede oturmu\u015f el i\u015fiyle u\u011fra\u015f\u0131yordu. Yan\u0131na \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcp sigaram\u0131 yakt\u0131m. Ortalar\u0131na kadar neredeyse hi\u00e7 konu\u015fmad\u0131k. Uzun Samsun i\u00e7iyordum o zamanlar, ismi gibi […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"1","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/249"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=249"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/249\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=249"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=249"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/alilidar.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=249"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}